For the past couple of months I’ve been trying to write lyrics. I’ve never had writers block like this. Or, I don’t know if I have writers block now. Everything I write, every sentence, even word, either feels overused; done, or just icky. I’m jumping from song to song, trying to get things done. I have a chorus here, a verse, or half a verse there. Can’t complete a thing.
Super frustrating. There’s an album to get done!
I ought to have learnt this by now.
That I don’t need to get stressed out.
That this is the way it works.
But I haven’t.
And, I’m getting.
I am talking of my thesis. The one I’m writing. The fourth one in two years. And it’s always been the same.
First the idea, the problem to tackle, is crystal clear. Then it grows, getting too big. Then I trim, twist, turn to get it down to size. All along with new ideas and solutions popping up, making the thesis go in all sorts of directions, not being able to see the line between problem and conclusion. Then this ‘all over’ start blending with moments of clarity, ping-ponging back and forth, faster shorter until (at least in my mind) clarity wins and the thesis, as by magic, gets finished.
Right now I am at the start of that ping-pong game.
Still stressing out though.
Is it because clarity is not a given winner?
So, new month. Lots to do.
First off, I’ll try to get well; to get rid of this cold. Into its third day now. Really wish it would just go away. I need to get my run on, you know.
Secondly, the thesis-writing goes into super serious mode this month. My aim is to have a pretty finished thesis by October 31:st. I have until mid January to polish it, but I really do not want to have too much to do. This, since I’m taking two full-time courses (each full-time in their own right) in November/December. (One on Artificial Intelligence and one on Ludwig Wittgenstein’s Tractatus.)
Today I’m going to start reading up on my John Rawls, The Veil of Ignorance and what concept of Mind and Knowledge, that ‘knowledge restriction’ is. The I’m going to see if there actually is a concept of Mind and Knowledge at all, or if that is an open question (leading to a less epistemic coherent theory).
In music I got some great news yesterday. Starting next week, I’m going to get regular airplay (for a while at least) on Sweden’s largest college radio station. It’s a start, and one that I am very happy with, not really bathing in airplay. Let’s hope other college radio stations, and national radio, follows.
Hi. I’m Ludwig, and I can philosophize your ass off.
One way:
The other way:
Today, 5 days before my bachelors thesis has to be handed in, I finally got into the zone, I got the writers block out of the way and I got going. I can’t understand why these things always start rolling at the very last minute. I wrote like a mad man and I made sense, at least to me. I really hope I will get done in time…
That’s about it really. I have been sitting here by the computer writing most of the day. Been out with the dog a few times but other that that…
Tomorrow will be more of the same, I hope.
Sorry for the lame short post but some days are like that. Well, no, there not lame and short… if there lame then they are long and if they are short than they, more often than not, are not lame; fun.
Yeah!
Still writing.
Still thinking.
Still reading.
In no particular order and all together. I have a dead line for a draft of my bachelors thesis on Friday. I really need to sit all day everyday until then to get good draft done. But I can’t. No. I have to go away for three days. With my job. To learn what I all ready know so that I can keep on doing what I am doing. Since I ‘m not working that much now a days it seem like such a waste. But like i said, I need to, or I will be taken off the job… and I really need that summer pay.
I’m taking my computer with me though. Mainly so I can study in the evenings but one or two words for you lot, my fans, my subordinates, will surely float your way. I might even be able to throw in a picture or two.
It’s not all bad though. My pal Andy G is also going. He moved out of town a couple of months ago and it’ll be nice to hook up with him for some hang time.
I really hope they have the Viasat channels in the Hotel. Really do not want to miss the Arsenal-Villareal game on Tuesday.
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